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Tuesday, 27 November 2007
i wrote this on my leg at my surprise birthday party in a frantic panic for solitary pressured wisdom
Mood:  special
Now Playing: jack johnson

If my arms

were but swallows,

of passion

and life & cries,

I'd hold the joys

of your deepest

wants,

and wish them

all away

and swim & fly

to the strongest

depths

& forever we would

stay.

peaceful & tranquil

in love. 


Posted by meggiek85 at 1:58 AM EST
Tuesday, 23 October 2007

joy

Posted by meggiek85 at 10:30 AM EDT
brothel
Now Playing: rilo kiley
I rarely comprehend the ways
of this world...
indeed I often negate myself
& watch. 
 
I may smile & laugh in a jovial manner,
how aesthetic it is to be the
beholder.
Ye! Look closer dear critic,
the perspective may be altered.
 
Subject to change...
such is the evidence
in the eye of the beholder.
Oh to be free like Picasso's
brothel beauties...
 
I hunger for such honesty. 

Posted by meggiek85 at 10:26 AM EDT
Tuesday, 9 October 2007
blades

Are we so jaded by structures and fixtures run wild, that finding fresh grass is but an entity of hope?  Ah sweet soil, how I can crave you, hunger for you, envy you. To come in contact with something so real, so alive, so sweet...pure destiny. Do you hold the secrets of my ancestors? Have you touched their souls? Ironically bittersweet, no? To find comfort and peace where dreams decompose...or do they soar?  Are dreams stemmed in the depths of your roots... are wishes granted there?

I have reached a dead end.

Bury me in your serenity, love. Safe and real and constant. Support my whole as I radiate joy, as I soak in melancholic dispositions. Be my recluse, just be constant. Be true, be you, my love. 


Posted by meggiek85 at 5:10 PM EDT
Updated: Tuesday, 9 October 2007 5:14 PM EDT
Monday, 1 October 2007
- the darkness is mine -
My faith is like a cloudy night.
you, the moon.
I look for you moon,
and you're hiding behind a cloud.
I'm angry, upset, lost...
Why do you neglect me?
 
I need you to light my way
and all I see is darkness.
 
And then...
I walk further
and look again.
 
There you are
all along.
I merely looked at you
where a cloud was set.
 
And I've realized...
 
 
the darkness is mine. 

Posted by meggiek85 at 11:54 PM EDT
Sunday, 30 September 2007
barriers
I know that I've let myself get in the way God.
I know all motives are mine.
But, I know that there's so much missing,
and You could bring it all back.
 
I just can't explain how it happened...
parties, drinking, clothes, boys, money, affections, stature...
they've replaced you.
 
I don't know how to but they have.
And when I stop to ask who I am,
Who you are...
I roll my eyes. 
 
I don't want to question Your value -
it just leads to truth.
And something in me rejects that.
It scares me..
but not. 

Posted by meggiek85 at 5:50 PM EDT
Saturday, 29 September 2007
examining truth

I was on the path less traveled, but somewhere I turned around.  said "wait, they're going that way...I want to see what they've all found."

So I said good riddance to all I saw before, God was reaching for me, but I walked out the door.

Has my pride taken the place of God?

Yes...yes it has. I know it and I feel it.

There's such a difference between the peace of God and the high of power/pride. I've been enjoying the high, but that sense of peace...it arrests me in depths I cannot even come to grasp.

When will I walk away from the highs and soar again with peace? 

 


Posted by meggiek85 at 11:39 AM EDT
Friday, 28 September 2007
one

Who am I?  I don't know.

Where am I going? Where am I now?

I think I'm lost, but I'm enjoying the scenery. Is it wrong to go off course? Will I learn from the things I see?

I'm not ready to meet you God...

 

but I'm on my way.


Posted by meggiek85 at 11:43 PM EDT
Sunday, 2 September 2007
An attempt at prayer

I. 

God, I miss you... no literally I miss You.

Every dream was set and grounded in Your ways.

Now what?

I feel like I've lost half my heart, I need to begin again,

but don't know where to start.

I'm lost.

I can sing empty praises and fake a smile at You,

but honestly I haven't got a clue

what I'm doing anymore. 

There's a constant lacking,

it cuts like a burn.

So I fill it up with booze.

When will I learn?

God I miss you. 

 

II. 

I'm lacking all that once was. Humility, unconditional love, real joy. It's faded away and I have no idea how to get it back. 

I pretend I'm fine... I'm not. I ingest anything to distract me from emptiness. But allthewhile, when I look in the mirror, I just see me.

I used to feel invincible, constantly Together.                   Now...alone.                                                              Completely alone.

I'll eat up all these resources to kill the void...              but eventually they'll all run out, and I'll come crawling back to you.

I can't wait. 


Posted by meggiek85 at 12:21 AM EDT
Friday, 10 August 2007
Its 3am and I'm writing sonnets

Romance has lost its charm,

And modern day art is far too raw.

I am dizzy from spinning at an angular perspective.

I'll pay the price for this... I know.

 

And yet, this masquerade may lend itself to some glorious concerto.

If so, I'm obliged to listen. 


Posted by meggiek85 at 12:04 AM EDT

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